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26 Mayıs 2009 Salı

Escalator



Only me.

My own.

Nobody else.

Just me
is
enough.

It's so crowded already.

So many thoughts,
So many feelings,
So many inputs,
So many outcomes.

It's so crowded already.

Isolation
of soul.

Loneliness..
It's optional.

Confronting yourself.

Facing needs.
Awareness.

Actualization of self,
without using people as stepping stones.

You don't have to fuck people over to survive.
You are worthy on your own already.
Don't try to live over me.
Don't try to use me.

P L E A S E

-My roots of existence-

17 Nisan 2009 Cuma

Emotional Ability For Starters



I have finally faced my loneliness.

Pretending that this was not serious.
It will come and go.
You insist;
'This is not the case!'
But suddenly,
you are feeling
D
O
W
N
.
.

The things that you try to make yourself believe.
On the other hand,
truths.
Things that you believe and don't.
You'll need and you won't.

A, B, C and D sets.
A intersection B.
B intersection C.
A∩B∩C∩D and more.
Hypotenuse, hippocampus, hippothalamus and more.


Common point:
My defences.
Do they intervene here?
Definitely, yes.
My perfect defences.
Like I used to write it down to remember it for future;
'Some of my defences are like baloons. Ready to explode when I fall down. Some of them are so tough, like a stone. It will not understood by out-of-doors, but I will be destroyed by the time I hit the stone. Little of them are like pillows. Pink and soft.'

An empty house.
That's what I needed.
But I can not go there.
My emotions.
I hate it.
The happiness of that house without me...
...it's killing me.
- 'It's not the people in it.'
- 'It's the house.'
Yeah,
keep on.
You are doing well.

- 'You are too distracted!'
- 'Not distracted.
I'm abstracted!'

Love my ignorance.
I've only just began.